On God, the devil, and dreams.

I am at a fragile point in my life right now. Maybe not any more fragile than I am on a daily/regular basis. But it feels fragile. I suppose that we are all fragile in some way or another almost all of the time.

Anyway, I have been tormented in and through my dreams the last couple nights. First dreaming that I was being hunted down. Then dreaming of something I desire to be true as true then finding myself disappointed when I awoke to find it not true. (followed by a wondering of where exactly it came from). The next dream found me doing what started out as being normal and eventually lead to just plain not nice behavior that I was disappointed in.

I am left after all of this wondering where each of my dreams came from? Is this God trying to teach me a lesson or tell me something that I am not getting? Is this the devil getting into my mind through dreams to mess with me in an area where I find myself to be weak? Is this my subconscious sending me a message of some sort? Or is incompletely unrelated and unconnected to anything and anyone? I wish I knew...

I do think that there is a measure of truth to be found in each of these possibilities. So as far as the devil goes, I command you, Satan in the name of Jesus that you get away from me and leave me alone. And as far as the rest goes, I am left to try and decifer the meaning of all of this, help me Lord to know what to make of it, where to change, and how to lean on You!