On God, the devil, and dreams.

I am at a fragile point in my life right now. Maybe not any more fragile than I am on a daily/regular basis. But it feels fragile. I suppose that we are all fragile in some way or another almost all of the time.

Anyway, I have been tormented in and through my dreams the last couple nights. First dreaming that I was being hunted down. Then dreaming of something I desire to be true as true then finding myself disappointed when I awoke to find it not true. (followed by a wondering of where exactly it came from). The next dream found me doing what started out as being normal and eventually lead to just plain not nice behavior that I was disappointed in.

I am left after all of this wondering where each of my dreams came from? Is this God trying to teach me a lesson or tell me something that I am not getting? Is this the devil getting into my mind through dreams to mess with me in an area where I find myself to be weak? Is this my subconscious sending me a message of some sort? Or is incompletely unrelated and unconnected to anything and anyone? I wish I knew...

I do think that there is a measure of truth to be found in each of these possibilities. So as far as the devil goes, I command you, Satan in the name of Jesus that you get away from me and leave me alone. And as far as the rest goes, I am left to try and decifer the meaning of all of this, help me Lord to know what to make of it, where to change, and how to lean on You!

Loving peace in the midst of so much.

There have been so many things going on in my life lately. A few drastic changes within the last year, and some minor ones in more recent months as well. Been trying to work through everything and come to a place where I am happy with life again. Today I can say that I have peace with where I am at and contentment with my current situation. Not to say that everything is hunky-dory and going amazing, just that I am happy with where God has me. To anyone that has prayed for me, I thank you. :)

Thoughts about current state of contentment or lack thereof.

I am at a point in my life where I'm just not sure about a lot of things. What is the next step when you lose your job? Why should you go get one when you would rather stay home with your family? What do you do when you can't find a job that suits you? It's hard to know when to settle or not... I know that God has all the answers, but I still feel like a blithering idiot. Maybe I am crazy. Because I am at the point where I am, (only working a part-time job and having to work hard to find a worthwhile job beyond that) I wish now, even more, that I could be married and able to stay at home. However, God has not seen it fit to provide a husband, that I know of, yet. Maybe I am not ready, but that is for Him to decide, not me. I cannot deny that I wish He would decide that I was ready. Wishing it so will not make it happen though.
So, I guess that my prayers are for wisdom to know what my next step is, patience to be content to wait, and God's hand and timing in all of it.