Trust. Fully. OR (F.R.O.G. Fully Rely On God)

Over the last couple weeks I have been slowly but surely learning a really hard lesson to learn. The lesson that I have learned is to completely and fully trust God with everything. I was trying over and over and over again to surrender everything, my life, my plans, things that were going on in my life, people who had entered into my life, etc. I kept turning all of these things over to God. Then I would start to think about one of them, then worry about it and eventually take it back again.
God started to challenge my plans by asking me what my motives were, and asking me to consider other options as well. For the longest time I knew what I was going to do, I had a 'tentative' two-year plan, unless God had other ideas. However, I was not very open to the other ideas because in my own selfish organized control freak way I wanted some semblance of order and control. By and by God asked me to start thinking about other options for my life's path and the directions that I may go. As I started to consider other things the plans that I had seemed to start to fade and then I had no conviction, passion, or really ideas about anything. I realized that God had taken away my plans that I was holding on to too tightly. Then I was uncomfortable, I was like, "Hey God this is not cool, I don't like this." He responded, "Don't worry I can handle this." I said, "Are You sure?" He said, "Yes, now trust me." I begrudgingly agreed.
Throughout a few days at different times God worked on me, softening me for placing me in the very spot that He wanted me. I did not even realize what He was doing all I knew was that it hurt, I was crying and asking why. I felt very small, humbled, vulnerable, and challenged. I did not enjoy feeling that way.
I just kept praying, and asked a few people to pray for me. I did not know what God was doing but I did not like it. After a while I realized that I didn't care as much about some of the very things that I had been stressing about. And then I came to the point where I totally surrendered everything to Him. I had been going about it all wrong and life was not good until I fully surrendered. Now if asked what I am doing I say, "I don't know, but God does. I am really excited about it though, cause whatever it is, it is gonna be great!"
Last night a friend asked if I was going to an event this summer my answer was, "I want to, but I really can't say at this point. God is in control of my plans not me. But I will ask Him about it." I just want to say that not worrying about what comes after today feels really good. And learning complete surrender is hard, but good. :)